I’m motivated

I’m motivated 

I recently learned this phrase, and started using it for real conversation; a chat with my friends, a job interview, and an alone time. Somehow, I really like it.

Not long ago, I was depressed that I couldn’t express my feelings in English and said, “Nooo, no more English!”, like spitting out hatred, but now I have completely changed.

I’m motivated 

Forget to be pessimistic about not having familiar language, and instead, I feel little spark of joy. You can do it if you’re motivated. You can do anything. I really believe that now.

The reason I feel this way is that surely I become able to believe my sense of picking up my own words. I feel that there is a regularity in the expression that choose it from social media and real conversations. 

I’m wondering if it picks up by sound and rhythm. I haven’t put them into words, but I understand it clearly. It hasn’t been long since I started learning English, but the feeling of choosing what I like is also valid in English. I’m happy to notice that, so lucky.

This means that if I keep doing, English will also become my own words. It’s only born from me, a little far-flying, fun, soft and pleasant. To increase my alter ego. Moreover, there are more situations that can be understood than Japanese, and it’s like a dream with the potential to spread around the world. It means that I might be able to acquire a very large expression technique. When I realized that, I got motivated again. It feel like pure possibility.

To be honest, my English is still like a machine though. Wait a minute. If you give me a little more time, I’ll share fun time! Promise! 

Words that belong only to me. If I think they’re good, that’s enough. That’s the best. So I’ll keep speaking and writing.

Right now I’m on a park bench, sending this message. Many pigeons are eating something, and they look really excited… 

I’ll keep sharing this kind of honesty. Ciao! ⭐︎